Love Eternal

5 12 2010

I believe it.  If you love someone and fall out of love.. then I don’t think you really loved them.   That said I do think it’s entirely possible for you or the other person to change so much that you may love them but the previous version of them.. or something like that.  Love is forever end of story.

I thought I was in love with.. him him him and him and even him… but I wasn’t.  The relationship ended and I saw it for it was, lust, boredom, entrainment, comfort.  I loved what I wanted them to be.  I loved the idea.  But I didn’t love them.  Love can change but it doesn’t just dispear.

I have been in love with two people, and I will love them forever, the intensity or pattern might change.  It may no longer be applicable or relevant in my current life… but they will always hold a part of my soul.  I will always love them.

People who talk about true love, need to be given a good wack to the head.  What other kind is there?  Love is love.  If you went about talking about ‘true rocks’ or true water, or true sun… you’d get locked up in the loony bin.  You may even grow to hate someone you love, you may resent them.. but you will always love them.  And if you don’t if you find yourself genuinely not caring one day.  Then how can you say you ever loved them?

That is what I believe.  Agree or don’t, it makes no difference to me.  I know it’s true in my reality.  And I prefer mine to a reality where love just disappears… that doesn’t make any sense to me, why would you even want it to?





Windows & Computer Woes

1 09 2009

BAH…  computers are all fine and dandy as long as they are working fine.  But as soon as they are not..  Welcome to the land of frustration and irritation.

imagesI hate windows, I hate Microsoft.. I swear they deliberately make their software suck on purpose.   I mean can it really be an accident that it fucks up as much as it does?  GRRRR   So my machine has been a little off lately, so I decided to re-install windows… but windows.. for whatever reason won’t update.  Since it won’t update.. even on automatic updates or going to the site.. there are all kinds of little things that won’t work properly.

Now I could just ‘suck it up princess’ and use it as is… but that’s what I did on my last install and it continued to have aggravating little problems.  Honestly, I am seriously considering switching to linux and anyone who knows me knows how serious that is.  I hate change, I hate learning a new system.  I’m comfortable and I know how windows works, it’s honestly the primary reason I loathe Macs (and I want to step on their shiny little screens).

But right now I’m so fed up and pissed off at windows…. seriously I could fucking scream.  The worst part is, I’m sure it’s all my own Read the rest of this entry »





Love letters

14 09 2008

I have received many a little note from my students over the years…. but this one takes the cake. I got it about a year ago and have been meaning to post it online for ages.. perhaps I hesitated because I promised an 8 year old that I wouldn’t show it to anyone. Although to be honest, I feel pretty confidant she meant at school 🙂 which I haven’t done.

Actually I’m a little excited about this! I haven’t read it in ages just about to bust it out in order to type it. Goody 🙂

Dear Teacher Magda,

I love you very much! Do you love me? ( _________) We are friends and hold hands together. I want to marry with you, but we are both girls! You are my best friend and teacher! I like to watch yo-yo TV, Dora, and learn reading and writing in school with you! And I like to play with your fingers everytimes when you come to our English classroom. Because we are friends and hold hands together! Summer is here and summer warmer right now! Write your own sentence! From: XXXXXX To: Magda

Lol, as you can see we had recently learned about exclamation points and in typical enthusiastic kid fashion it’s in almost every sentence. The holding hand business was, her desk was st the front of the class and I would often stand near her desk and she would grab my hand, or if I had my hand on her book pointing at soemthing she would always grab my hand and fiddle with my fingers. Kids are sweet if you let them be.

Her class is now in Grade three and they are the only huggy grade three-er I have ever seen in this country, I mean the whole class not one or two kids. Basically I let them know that hugging people and expressing that you think well of them was ok with me and that I appreciated it, and let them know I liked them and thought they were cool kids, and nice and they EMBRACED the concept. I can’t go in or out of the school with out being borderline mauled by the kids, especially as they are now in Grade 3 and no longer in my class. They have already begged me to make sure I stay at the school long enough for them to get to grade four (and back into my class, I teach grade two and four)