Sensitive Girl…edit

9 07 2010

I had this big post all planned out in my head, very heart pouring out.  Revealing of inner workings and such.. but that sort of thing hasn’t really been panning out for me much recently.

I was going to delve into my school years, the reasons for my bravado, hard candy coating, my false sunny front that I put up when down.  But as I sit down to write, I don’t want to share.

Seems odd to me too, perhaps I’m just in a bad mood but I don’t feel like sharing my thoughts and feelings.  Explaining myself and why the things people do and say get to me…  instead I’m going to go back to reading or drawing or something.. perhaps tomorrow will be a more ‘writy, sharey day’.

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11 07 2010
bex

As much as I understand your want to share and explain I am going to tell you to follow the first instinc and dont.. dont share dont look back.. your an amazing person today and tomorrow.. always go forward,, learn from the past.. the truth is your not that same person that had all those thing happen to in school your this magda, todays magda, you dont have to explaine why you are the way you are, just be this magda… , just own it!! your amazing, your beautiful, your smart, and I love you today for you!!

best quote I have ever received “if you need another person to vaildate your perception, you ar interfering with your own ability to intiut – blocking your intuition”

LOVE YOU!!!

13 07 2010
Magdalicious

Awe thanks Bex 🙂

12 07 2010
bowet000

I think Becky makes a very good point. You don’t have to justify why you are, just know that you’re awesome! There are many aspects about myself that others find offensive or irritating, but they are qualities that I value in myself. If you are happy with who you are, then that’s wonderful. If there are things you want to change because it’s important to you, then do that. But don’t let anyone else tell you how to feel or act or justify yourself to anyone! I think you’re fabulous just the way you are, and I have since I met you when we were 11.

13 07 2010
Magdalicious

Yeah I agree.. but I do like to give people a little perspective sometimes 🙂

18 07 2010
Kari

A quote that I think of from time to time from one of our great minds…His first name starts with an A and his last name an E…hmm wonder who he is? haha

The quote is.

Learn From Yesterday
Live For Today
Hope For Tommorrow

You may be an amazing person but I must say because it is who I am. Is that sometimes looking back at yesterday will help you live better today and slowly become a greater person than you are. From my experience people have told me I am such a lovely person, but the people who help me detect the things I should work on to be a better person, since..perfection by word is impossible. and who do it in a friendly friend way. I tend to stay around them more.

Because isn’t that what friends are for? To help us understand, grow and become the better person hidden within ourselves? Perhaps, it would be best to share your feelings here with people you have seen be understanding, and caring. As for the people who AREN’T understanding and caring….fuck the fucking fuckers!! hahaha I mean…You are a person who can hold onto the real people and toss the facade’s into the trash! I do understand the feeling not to share though…and if you were in a bad mood perhaps it was best you didn’t share at that time since you probably would have focused on the negative of then and not what you could learn from it.

Have a fantastic day!
Blessed Be!
~Kari

23 07 2010
Magdalicious

yeah, you may have noticed I’m a bit of a sharer.. but with somethings and some moods… grumpy gus 😀

29 08 2010
Brad

Leave the school years behind Magda, they were all horrible. Looks like things are going well for you now and I am really happy for you. As one of those people that made the school days less than pleasent for you, just know that I am really sorry and that you didn’t deserve that happened between us. You were a good friend and I took advantage of that. I know that doesn’t take the hurt away from what happened, but know that I was not a caring person and used people to my advantage, with little regard for their feelings. I was mimicking the environment I was raised in, but I have moved past that and learned to be respectful of people and how my actions affect them. Wishing you all the best and success!!!

Brad

6 09 2010
Magdalicious

Thanks Brad. Don’t beat yourself up too much about what happened when we were kids. You were a dick, but so was everyone else, your behavior was worse because you were supposed to be my friend, but hey. I know I have ignored your many attempts to apologize, not really so much because I’m angry, but more it was a long time ago and I didn’t really have anything to say. I’m glad that your life has turned out well, and that you’re grown as a person, I wish you the best :).

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